" if anyone else cant make it AT ALL, please tell me now. NOWNOWNOW. or else i will murder you and you'll be a real ghost on the actual day.."

LOL!
the email is damn funny, now that the dry run is over.
haha.
so help me!
i'm supposed to be a ghost but how to spook ppl when they walk right up to me and say "hi jade" and pat me on the head?
i just lose all my will to even try and spook them.
haha.
now i know how the "ghosts" on nightwalks in camps feel.
playing the role of a ghost is totally different from standing behind the wall and screaming BOO.
seriously the goth make-up and racoon eyes do a VERY small job when they all know to expect you.
haha.
mayb lynds should really murder us, cuz for SOME reason (actually its obvious), we "ghosts" and the programmers (incl the chiefs) can nv seem to do a good enough job for SOME other people.
i mean, how much do you think you can spook your friends when they already know its you behind all the thick makeup?
unless you're a person with low shock tolerance, you'll just laugh at the efforts.
and i don't blame them for trying to contain their laughter, cux if it was me, i'd laugh too!

oh whatever.
its over.
it was a good experience no matter what.
and lynds and lampy worked their asses off.
the dry run was pretty good i thought.
the location was damn spooky.
if shiming wasn't with me i'd be spooked out of my hair.

Labels: gakkou, tomodachi

went to watch lynds, the derek, nina, louis perform at junction 8 today.
mentioned it to banana but i guess she forgot.
haha.
everyone from hall 8 who were there to support them as well as the performers themselves were so pissed at the organisers.
first, they changed the performance time to 11 am at the last minute.
second, they ate into the singing time because they wanted to have dry runs.
after eating into the performance time, they tell the group that instead of getting an hour of stage time, they have to cut down to 1/2 and hour.

note: the performers are NOT paid, they are doing it for charity. but they have been practicing for weeks! just for this day. then they're told they CAN'T do all the songs they put in the effort for.
at least louis shot a comment at them on stage before doing the final song.

the supporters that came were henghow, qinlong, fatein, shiming, ahmad, me.
had lunch at pastamania then i went off to meet my mum...

went to the sensei (chinese doc)...
apparently my back, esp the lower part is all messed up, and my joints too.
the guy weeded all of this out w/o me saying anything; all he did was massage my feet and wa-la, he shot question aft question.
and he also said i'm fatigued.
and when the time of the month comes i'm pretty much useless and its system is weak too.
i was thinking like "do u read minds too?"
he said i should follow a certain diet from now on..

I CAN'T CONSUME: any cold drinks/ cooling stuff, ice cream, chicken, eggs (poultry basically), yoghurt (goodbye meiji nata de coco yoghurt), sour fruits and mango, watermelon, honeydew (all my fave!), fried stuff (sayonara to KFC, Macs, LJS), all soy products and nuts.

I CAN'T DO: any rigorous sports including jogging! and he said i should avoid dancing as well.

this is the shits.
seriously.
this means i can eat mostly only veggie and a bit lean pork/ fish. as for fruits, dragonfruit and apples are at the top of the list to eat. that's it! i'm like ~huuuuuhhhhhh....
and water should only be consumed in sips to prevent water retention etc.
zomgggg.


ended up watching "THE DARK KNIGHT" today....
with mum.
i kinda understand why heath ledger went crazy now.
i think i probably would too.

Labels: ehhhh?, tomodachi

my facebook says i'm pissed at rich people.
not really true.
it basically applies to those who are so...ARGH...obnoxious/self-centred/ego-centric/rude/asshole-ic.
if any one has watched the movie "Pretty Woman", you probably have a better idea of what i'm trying to say.
so what if u have the car, the credit cards, the house, the cash?
so what, huh?
is your blood purer or cleaner or more expensive than someone elses?
does that give you a right to make snide/rude comments at someone who isn't well-to-do?
wait, correction, someone who APPEARS to be less well-off.
you don't even know for a fact they are poor but u categorize them, judge them, by their appearance.
why do u even have to make comments like, "ya, they'll have that amount of money, maybe in 20 yrs time..haha"
wth?!

even IF they were poor, they STILL might have a fund they've been saving or sth, u never know.
still, u had to scare them off.
and they were so polite, unlike the RICH kids who come in all bratty with airs abt them.
and for WHAT?

HAH! then karma bit u right back.
u got embarrassed back by someone dear.
serves you damn well right.



what happened today was one of those situations where all u CAN do is stand by silently, bite your lip and feel the shame for someone else.
its one thing if its ur own fault, but its worse when its NOT your fault, but u feel shame anyway and have to be associated WITH that person as well.



to the very well-mannered teens, I'm SO SORRY you had to go through that.

Labels: shigoto, The A List

oh my tian!!!
i am so tired.
the feeling of sweating under the aircon is YUCK.
haha.
hmm.
coldside on a weekend is.....scary?
mayb cux i got slacker and zennot training me.
or rather, zennot was pressuring me to death, therefore, killing me.
ok, im exaggerating a bit.
to give him the B-O-D, mayb he just had high expectations of me...
expecting me to know what he wants me to do w/o saying so.
SH & SA were shooting at the slacker at first, the former telling him to leave me alone, and the latter telling me to jus scold him for slacking. lol.
it wasn't so bad.
at least zennot wasn't in his mood-swing mode...
he was telling me abt sing-fest...and reminding me how lucky i was he at least was conversing w me, which is also true...
he seldom speaks to newbies, let alone some of the older staff.
i still dont have the confidence to cut the c/cs.
and i only rmb what i have to do only AFT i make some minor mistake.
then when realisation hits i got "shitshitshit"
and then zennot will say, "what shitshitshit? nothing wad"
then i gp "butbutbut..."
then he'll say "aiya, the cake isnt going to eat u"
LOL.
everything else was pretty much this way.

oh! forgot to eat the cookies IVY gave.
the girl is sweet.
haha.
she quit but still bought tons of famous amos for everyone to share...
hoping we all see her go on happy terms i guess.
U.P was pretty pai seh abt it too...

JS popped by and i actually stuck HALF MY BODY out the window to see if she brought her petite GF along. lol. they are so CUTE tgt... always reminds me of precious moments figurines, for some reason.
lol...

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earlier today.....
was at GG.
got a surprise when i got there, emoroomie was working!
like, LTNO can?
haha.
someone traded in their Gibson ES 335...it was a bright red one...
HOT! but super dirty in some places.
oH!
emo/sadist boy popped by w edward...one of his IJ classmates?
yea.


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would you throw your life away?
your riches, friends, fame and family,
to walk into the wild,
and live your life solitary?

just got back from Penang...
went with Jane and Weel.
the bus ride was ---------------------------------------------

never-ending.

shopping was, as usual, fun, but there wasn't enough time and i didn't bring enough cash.
everything (or almost, anw), was cheaper there, but i didn't manage to buy back stuff for everyone....
i got leather materials to make stuff for the clan, some bangles for the emo roomie, jo's bday present, my shorts, a skirt, a shawl and a baggy beanie, shoes.
oh and i found the loopy loopy bracelet thing in black (finally!) couldn't find ANY in SG.
IGI got similar necklaces as a souvenior...
we didn't get to utilize the pool at all... it was 1/2 rainy and when it was shining, either we were too full to swim or we were leaving the hotel to go shopping.
lol.
weel got lots of training for chilli tolerance.
LOL.


and as for me, for the first time in a LONG LONG while, i got to rest w/o worrying about emails, smses, or any commitments that constantly bug me.
i actually got undisturbed sleep at night, in the day, in the car, bus, anywhere.
so much so tt weel and jane thought i was turning into some modern day RIP VAN WINKLE.
whilst in singapore i can hardly sleep, in penang, my eyes were hardly open long enough.

stuff to get before school starts:
- slippers (that don't give me blisters)
- a bag (for carrying books and stuff, my red roxy one is dying soon)
- watch (not necessary, but.....haiz i dont wanna wear out my green flikflak so fast)


learnt quite a bit abt people...
still can't believe the stuff about AJ.
how on earth could he degrade to this wretched state?
why did he do all of that then beg J to forgive him?
did he honestly expect her to be dumb enough to take him back?

Labels: ai, escape, tomodachi

dunno why for the love of god i let that idiot customer get to me.
it was like, so dumb.
i ended up getting angry at the woman, then getting angry at myself for letting her make me angry.
i mean, after more than 1 and a 1/2 yrs in this line and i'm still so -___-
its almost embarrassing.
and it totally ruined an otherwise good day.

other than that customer from hell, there was this other indo couple i think?
irritating in a different way.
they came in twice, both times they walked right in w/o waiting to be seated.
1st time, after getting them a seat in the smoking section, they walked off, saying they changed their minds.
2nd time they came in they actually went and look afor a spot by themselves.
i was like, WHAT THE HELL??

i spent the afternoon in the cold kitchen making jedi mudsters and desserts and cutting cakes and watching saini make the ugly cake commit suicide. it was pretty funny.
and at the rate i'm going i think i'll take a few hours just to slice a cake.
but its scary.
like, if i sliced wrong, i'd have to pay for the wastage.
so. best not to make any mistakes.
lol.



i dread but can't wait to get back to sch at the same time. argh.

Labels: shigoto

"...the things inside people's hearts, exceed anything i can imagine...."
---------------------------------- Shuuji, from Nobuta wo Produce

the irony is, he lies to everyone else too..
appearing happy all the time, saying yes and helping all the time but never complaining although he feels like crap.
he does all this in order to manipulate everyone to his liking as well too.
until he meets kotani and akira.
one who doesn't speak and the other who only spurts nonsense most of the time.
lol.
fact of life.
we all never know what someone else hides.
until he or she says so.
even then, some people just say things that are different form what they feel.


"......I don't care if no one else believes me....i just want the two of them to...."
also true...
when u hit rock bottom, where the sponge lives in a pineapple who has a male ink starfish for a friend, life still goes on.
and u'll realise it doesnt matter if the rest of the world stares at you as though you have three heads....
all u need are the people who ALREADY believe in you BEFORE u explain yourself.

Labels: random "in sights"

heyhey.
sorry it took me so long to update...
after that post, i was off to senior's camp from the 5th and 6th of July....
then it was off to work on monday, and on tuesday i had a "A-Clan" (orientation grp name) outing at pulau ubin.
so..... i back dated the entries so it wont seem like the post goes on forever. lol.
=)

Labels: its too late to apologize....too late...

the camp was supposed to begin at nine am, but obviously most of us were late.
lol.
i hitched a ride from the twins cuz they stay nearby....
thank heavens for them! it took us less than an hour to get there by car...
if i had taken MRT i'd probably need at least an hr and a half.
plus it wasn't a good day for me to be participating in some camp.
i was pretty glad that most of our clan made it.....
the CGL (cheif grp leader/loser): CCC (Chow Chee Chong)
the ACGL: A, B, DenCy Cheng
the GLs: Kennard, Jake (xiao tian tian), Nina and me....my buttie Brian couldnt make it...
the SAs (seniors attached): Eldine (the x-CGL, banana u noe him...and his ass. lol!) Shu Wen (x-GL)...
we had the least number of people present, as usual, cuz our clan is ALWAYS SOMEHOW the smallest, but we were the FIRST to kick of the Clan Cheers!
WHOO HOOO!

the new clan names are....
Aeon, Kaze, Phazer?, and Xipher....the theme for this FOC is "SuperSpy", hence the names.
last years was supposed to be based on greek/roman mythology....
which was why we were called Azriel (dark angel), Khydra (from hydra, the many headed snake), Phaeton (i dno what this one is) and Xaedon (i think it was some warrior?)
sorry if i got them wrong peeps, i'm recalling from the banners i rmbd from last yr. haha.

water games this yr seem super challenging as compared to last yr.... the capsizing one, esp.
dunno abt the field games though... i was busy painting my ..."WELCOME BACK TO HALL 8" banner...
Initiation for the freshmen look interesting....mUhahaha.
i can just rmb how i attacked daxiong even though he was an innocent party.
haha, lesson: never blindfold and attack someone who isn't feeling well, u just might end up with a pinch on ur boob and a slap on ur face (working at n.y.d.c w/ Banana n Papa was really helpful! =D)

all in all.
i had to leave early on sunday cuz i was supposed to meet up with the thonners+Jeremy...
AFTER SO LONG!
@ minds cafe....also to give Pinky his belated present...
haha.
pinky's korean is like, id no la!
he learns at super fast speed!
some people are just smart. haha
the only difference from this outing was....
that we didnt get off at the same stop...
i kinda miss when we SOMETIMES studied at mac tgt... or the few times he sent me home.
haha.
since he isnt the kind who sends girls home, when he does do it, its pretty comforting in a sense that i never get bored talking to him!
he's one of the most straightforward people i know.
ah well.

=)

peeps!
movies u should check out if u haven't alr watched!
- blood and chocolate
- chocolate (the thai fighting one)
- Speak
- becoming jane
- the other boleynn girl

p.s. other than chocolate, becoming jane and the other boleynn girl the other two are from last yr or older..
but good anw.
=)

Labels: gakkou, tomodachi

ya, i'm crazy.
ya, i'm all the pathetic expressions banana always makes to my face.
ya, its SOOOOOO funny! why not laugh somemore?
i'll make u a deal ALL of you out there can laugh it off.
don't mind if i WON'T join in.
seems like the only time anyone takes me SERIOUSLY is when something really BAD happens.
so laugh.
go ahead.
you all probably think i'm a fool for being happy/amused abt the small things.
comedies are based on other people's tragedies anyway.
well, FUCK IT.
i hope u all had a good laugh at my expense.
i'll just have to SUCK IT UP and put up with it right?
because i try to be fair
because i don't want to judge.
this is what i get for coming to the defense of the wrong people.
this is what i get for rushing home to make sure jo was fine.

oh no, I, I, live in shame.
nothing i do is good enough for anyone.
WHY...
when it doesn't even matter how hard i try

Labels: the pin cushion

so here's what really happened today.
worked at GG till 5 then slowly made my way down to n.y.d.c.
getting a replacement or MC was quite out of the question cuz Ms S was working.
haha.
she would've had my head.
as it is when i left early today (NB made me leave at 9 instead of 11), Ms S was abt to scream bloody murder at me.
haha.
no one to suffer with her.
lol.
oh ya.
i kinda hinted at sexyback not to say things abt NB in front of the girls.
cuz he was ranting on and on abt how NB claimed he was "dripping" when he saw this hot girl.
and theres sth else i wanna say but mayb thru the daily dosage of GOSS. haha
i think aft banana finishes gossipgirl, all hell will break loose!

today is the "WHY" and "ANGRY" day.
why does sth tt starts out as a good intention end as an argument?
how can i NOT be angry?
why can't i have a normal anything, for that matter?
why is my mum so in denial that she still lumps all the sai kang on the eldest kid.
it'd be much easier for me to bear it if she knew she was like that but cant change rather than be in denial thinking she's fair to all.
i dunno if u get it, but.
(and no lynds, i'm not expecting sympathy. since u don't know, i actually CAN'T handle sympathy)
all i wanted was a listening ear, or in ytd's case, just eyes. lol.

ja~

Labels: kazoku, shigoto, The A List

look what i found! to the 6 of u... hahaha. i found this thing on M's blog. wow! i can sure feel my ego swelling now. LOL!!

What Jade Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

work at N.Y.D.C ytd was torture.
we were ALL melting...
jcrc meeting was ytd. will update later.
tuning guitars is so NOT my forte.
maybe cux i still treat the instrument like porcelain tt may break anytime.
lol.

Labels: gakkou, shigoto