i broke 3 times today.
the emails, the grades, the people.
stab by friggin stab, drop by drop.
cut by cut.
i have nothing left.
laugh and say i'm emo why don't you.
things like these NEVER happen to you.
run away when i ask you to explain, say i won't understand.
but u NEVER even gave me a chance to and you call me apathetic and naggy.
but guess what.
you don't know what i think, you don't know what i feel either.
nothing that comes out of the two pieces of flesh you call lips comes close to what i feel.
you want to know what i feel?
i feel my head crashing into the freshly painted wall.
i feel the scissors slicing my skin.
i feel the weight of the world, the speck on sand on the floor.
i see the self destruction of a heartbroken and my heart goes along with it.
do you know?
no.
i try to hint, but you dun get it. AT ALL.
and you think i nag. but when i don't, you don't even notice anything.
why even bother including me then?
just because its a constant?
then don't.
do i have to break down for you before you even twitch an eyelid?
then i'd rather die in front of you so you will look at me, even if i am in the goddamn coffin and i can't look back at you.

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