one hour and five minutes counting......


and like, 7 ppl pang seh-d!!!


thank god zoee n bren are here!!!!!


and MUM.
OMG

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the 1st day if the 21st year.
omg.

the party prep is so screwed all of a sudden.
and i am honestly feeling damn horrible now from the 3 hours of sleep last night thanks to the pre-comp jitters.

and not to mention the number of times i cried today.
1. sad cuz we didn't win ANYTHING even though everyone told us we were good.
2. when the entire dance team started singing "Happy Birthday" in the middle of the hall in front of everyone and everyone else who didn't know it was my bday was staring in shock.
3.when southpark whipped out a dessert thing with candles on it (courtesy of kev), i cried cuz it was so unexpected and i was touched.
4. when we got back to hall 8 and suddenly nina & riana appeared with a birthday cake!
5. we had a emo session and we all teared when grace cried

-inbtwn i managed to call mark and he was alr on the plane. i managed to call him though. there he goes.

and now all the last minute changes.
wah.
i cannot tahan.
i'm too freaking shagged to even rebutt or reply.
i'm just going.... "ok, nvm" "sorry".....
i mean ppl are asking me when i'm cutting the cake.
like. HUH??
my brain has shutdown and my eyes are gonna pop soon.
someone please save me.
i dno la.
i am REALLY REALLY PRAYING tml WON'T be a MESS.
oh god please.
i haven't had a party since pri sch.
let tml work out somehow.




fine.
i need a miracle.
-crosses fingers-



i have to wake up to get my ass from boon lay to yishun to get 5kg of curry then get my ass to amk b4 heading to pasir ris.
OH EM GEE.
really.

oh god i feel like crying again.
too much emotions for one day. or three.
i need a neck to wring.
or a punching bag. - - i will love u forever if u get me this. LOL.
or a pen knife to slash something.

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nonononono!!!!!!!!!

its not possible.
it cannot be.
or is it?
then again.

ok.
there's V.
there's M.
and theres W.
and here, is me, i have no idea what i'm getting myself into i think.
then again, mayb i'm thinking too much.
haha.

i think my roomie and i are bonding better.
its a bit late...
but, better late than never, ay?

=)
one more day.
just, one more day.

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crazy.
kirai.
siao.
mad.
insane.
mental.

i'm going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

cut up our shirts for dance.
quite satisfied with mine.
haha.
i cut only in certain places so my fats still has some space to hide...
though i think i have lost SOME weight, i wouldn't count on it.
haha.
elicia's flat n toned tummy is to DIE for.



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on a side note, one of my jc juniors actually thought i became....CHUBBIER...
where?
my LEGS!
so funny i tell u.
1. i didn't even know he knew who i was, but apparently SJL says i'm known because i'm freaking tall. =/ ( btw, it was at SJL's party that i had to mingle with the IJC bball juniors thanks to LOW CHING WING JASON who FORGOT he was supposed to attend w me, then coming when i was abt to leave)

2. i never thought my legs were fat/ tt they showed my not-so skinny side... honestly i tot it was my arms and tummy area. sigh. my legs were my last hope.

sheesh.
at least he was honest.
haha!

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it was you who made the clouds above
it was you who made the tears fall down
it was you who broke my heart in pieces


its funny.
real funny how things turn out.


So don't say our goodbyes,
You know it's better that way.
We won't break,
We won't die.
It's just a moment of change.


wished "lao shi" happy birthday just now... more like ytd.
its been long.

All we are and all we need.
All we wish for and all we see.


i'm trying.
i will try harder.
smile, smile, smile =)

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hey people.
locked my blog for the moment.

this, is, a blog.
this, also means, although its public, its still personal.
and, no one is forced to read this.
therefore, if, u, whoever u may be, decides to read, then please.
deal with it.
this is how I deal with MY problems and emotional issues.
even if i SOUND more pissed than i really am, or say things i don't really mean, i really don't think u have the right to tell me/ask me/strongly encourage me to remove my entry.
if i don't even get to rant here, then what, u want me to self-mutilate and take sleeping pills?
think about it.

and second.
this is a form or archiving the stuff that happens, what i feel etc in my life.
repeat, what I feel.
even if i don't feel like what i say after some time has passed, i won't change what i have said.
i do not see the need to be diplomatically correct every hour, minute, second, millisecond of everyday.
and i think u will actually agree with me on that last bit.
i am HUMAN.
i may say childish things, but YOU should also grow up.
if you really can't deal with what u see, don't read.
why make your own life so difficult?

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