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Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.

Monday, December 08, 2008

Nephrite at 12:58:00 AM

havent updated in a REALLY long time.
anw.
the exams have been over since like a week ago.

i'll start with us (NY HEEREN) winning the quiz!
yay for us!
and the ktv/bar outing after that.
it was pretty fun overall.
although there was this part where i felt like just ditching the whole thing.
and i've been wondering if i should say what i'm about to say.
i thought about it for like the past week, or rather since it happened.
and i shall say it.
or you all wouldnt understand why i lost my temper.

i CANNOT stand the sight of wasted/ or the process of wasting food.
especially if its on purpose.
yea, i work at a place that sees wasted food all the time.
but i can't do anything about the customers now can i?
i myself try as much as possible not to waste it.
but when i see people doing it on purpose.
and totally wrecking the place whilst doing it, i get even more agitated.
reasons?

1) I understand how it feels to (you all HOPEFULLY, will NEVER have to) eat LEFTOVERS for dinner. although it went on for like a few months, which is a relatively short period of time, i will never forget the degrading feeling it left on me. but i ate it anyway, because my sisters never complained, and i wasn't about to either.

2) I, as well as all of u working with me, HATE cleaning horrid messes the customers make. so WHY WHY WHY did you have to wreck our spot like that??!

but the worst?
was when i tried to tell you all to stop, and all three of u turned your heads away and it was as if i never spoke a word, or as though i was a raving lunatic.
that pretty much sucked.
banana esp, when u always tell me not to let people walk all over me.
it really wasn't tt i had too much to drink, because i hardly drank any alcohol at all.
and i was NOT emo, not until u guys ignored me.
then sara said something along the lines of what u all were throwing was the ones tt already fell to the floor. which was..... cuz almost the entire bowl was gone.
yea, its free, but so what?
but yea, i had to push my temper away again, or risk ruining everyone else's night.
and that made me feel bad, so i just ignored my impending tantrum.
its all about acceptance, isn't it?

then work on friday.
guess what?
my friends didnt talk to me much.
but guess who did?
ZEN, of all people.
of course, he was complaining abt u all in and out.
but yea.
he was unusually friendlier than his usual "you're all so clique-ish" attitude.
and it bugged me.
and i'm desperately trying to NOT LET IT BUG ME.

andand.
coldside with galvin was FUN.
surprisingly.
HAHA.

anw.
had dance and softball training.
aching all over.
but its good.
as in at least i know im getting excercise.

to banana.
yea i dont mind working on the last day.
but, WILL THE MANAGERS EVEN GIVE ME THE FREAKIN SHIFT??
i can try.
its not as if i don't want to work.

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