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Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.

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Friday, October 10, 2008

Nephrite at 3:14:00 AM

saw someone's blog.
say tt the Cball game was f**ked up cux we were VIOLENT.
HELLO.
look who's talking.
if it isnt the twit who can't type in proper english that any 17 yr old should have.
can't even get her tenses right.
isn't two girls openly fighting for ONE guy's attn even more f-d up?
or the fact tt ppl have superiority complexes even though we ALL work in the same company and at the same tier? clearly the waitresses are NOT the highest ranking in the corporate world.
D.Fs really.
some ppl have NO REGARD for respect. you only know how to want it, but don't know shit about earning it.
I bet u if i didnt play for Diners they'd have cursed us openly.
as it was, we werent super violent against them.
as for bugis.
shikin, the captain, wouldn't have had it any other way.
i doubt shikin would've liked us to slack during the game.
it would've have been satisfying to win if we didnt try our best.
and we were all friends, even at the end.
some people just can't DEAL.
and then there are those who are Just. Plain. DAMAGED. in the head.

today was.
hmm.
not bad i guess?
i attended all my lessons.
jap was tongue-twisting as usual.
geraldine's tutorial made me feel real real bad.
she's like, one of the most groovy tutors a lit kid can get, but the module she's helping to tutor just totally sucks. and it doesnt help that the lecturer is such a biatch hidden w/in an old woman.
almost dozed off in Business Law lecture though...that was when the cold started kicking in.
by the end of the lecture i was dying for a warm bed and hot choc.

feel real bad for ditching damien, nat and steven on tuesday though.
they're like, the only ones i really speak to when i attend class.
then for the classes i don't attend with them, i don't speak. at all.
i just try to merge into the chair my ass is sitting on.

and take notes.

i don't know why it feels like i'm fading away.
i avoid people i know even when i see them in school.
i refuse to believe its a subconscious thing tts happening just cause everyone keeps saying i know the whole world.
but what if it is?
sometimes. just sometimes, i don't understand myself anymore.

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