ok.
a month's worth of irritation has built up.
wrath.
fury.
anger.
annoyance.
grievance.
aggravation.
agitation.
pain.

i think we should be less critical.
of themselves.
of others.
of their loved ones.
like tt song (i can't rmb which) says, we only hurt the ones we really love.
i wonder why's that.
so everyone should be happy someone hurt them cuz it shows they love us?

i think everyone should not jump into conclusions too quickly.
but.
pretending to not see what the truth is doesnt really help either.
imo.



there is someone driving me to the brink of confusion right now.
-________-
and i don't quite know how to react to it.
sometimes i feel like some idiot.
thne again mayb its cuz once bitten, twice shy.
oh well.

the sundown marathon was waywayway worse than the standard chartered one.
i was road marshal this time.
even though my post was at the bridge, i had to stand at the crossroads.
cuz the runners kept getting confused.
though i think if they all were super focused there'd be sth unnatural.
lol.
i was standing at the 34km mark, or thereabout.
i was alone and i got pretty shocked when this guy kept puking water over and over.
turns out he had dengue fever the previous week and haven't recovered but ran anw.
thats crazy man.
and i actually got told off by the runners for directing them to shelter.
er, sorry, but i don't wanna get struck by lightning and i'm recovering from a cold so i don't wanna have to spend another week in bed.
and.
i personally don't think i could bear if some runner collasped in front of me.
but instead i got told off for not doing my job, for not being human etcetc.
i know i shouldnt be affected but argh.

i saw.....
- weel - IJC
- eugene
- chow chee chong - Hall 8
- calvin - IJC
- joash - IJC
- jalilah (i think?) - NSS, IJC

some ppl looked familiar... but i wasnt sure if i knew them so..

ppl who ran but i didn't see....
- Jillene
- Jeremy