the invisible lines
they decorate my wrist
waits for time
to pass quick

rivulets of red emerge and spill
they overflow
theres nothing like this
the bliss i feel

the pain ebbs
my heart flutters
my brain mutters
again.

four and five
ten and two
what do you get?
thats twenty for you

four equal lines
running side by side
its one for every five
years i've lived

every mark life has made on me
every mark i carve deep onto me.
the chapter closes,
the next one blossoms

as the red red rain falls
tears come less and less
my heart begins to freeze
since when has life been a breeze?
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i now regret sulking and then spilling to my entertainer.
cux i feel like crap-shit now.
kejun's note made me cry.
im such an asshole.
for all that i tease rtcc n xnl n lemor abt being assholes.
im the worst.
sai-tei.
wad in the blue hell is wrong with me.
i should have let it pass.
i should have known it was too good to be true.

otanjoubi omedettou gozaimasu.
to hell with all the shit i've had to see/put up with.
my wish, my wish is...
to stop getting excited then hating my birthday to smithereens.