Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
u caught me off guard.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Nephrite at 5:24:00 PM
horoscope of the day....
"You need to start understanding that expressing yourself is necessary to get you to the next level of happiness. In other words, for a healthier life, you need to share your feelings -- no matter what they are. So today, whenever you feel something, express it in the most original and creative way you can. Singing, dancing, cooking or even just goofing around are all great ways to display how you're feeling. If you keep your emotions inside or mask them, you'll be wasting your time."
grrr.
i feel really languid right now.
i wanna run as fast, as far away as i can.
im so fatigued.
i dun quite know from what.
sat i skipped mrs naidu's mum's wake and started work early.
3pm to 2 am is no friggin joke man.
and i was cashier that night.
good in a way i guess.
no need to run so much.
and i was lucky tt there werent tt many customers tt nite.
tho it means less incentive.
but still, when money is involved, i'll nv cease to get nervous.
ms S has turned 20!!
haha.
hey, sms me will u?
i have stuff to pass to u.
haha.
and tell u too.
i was pretty depressed on sat cux the atmosphere at night pretty much sucked.
but oh well.
its over now.
sun was a real rush.
haha
and not to mention my fellow lit mates made me wait two hours.
as usual, wang chin lost her way.
ms cheerleader!!
stop being so careless will u.
one day u might lose yourself.
haha.
joseph made us all undergo psychological tests.
i died when i gt back to hall.
thank god for joel.
he drove ms cheerleader n me back.
i cant imagine the train ride from town all the way back to this desolate end of sg.
ok.
to be honest abt me feelings?
i. feel. like. a. great. tall. excuse. of. a. failure.
i dont know.
the good thing abt me is im passion driven.
and thats also the bad thing abt me.
if i have no inspiration, i cant get any work done.
and i end up either procrastinating or i pressure myself till i break to bits.
the latter is what happened today.
i think i lost it cux i was so disappointed in my lousy design for the banner.
grr.
i shall vow to keep up to expectations.
which is my fear.
how shall i work
when i fear
the ones that made me
may break me
hate me
spurn me
judge me
and never trust me?
when i know not what i fear
do not know what i have to adhere
i feel so transparent
like i'm lying naked on the floor
yet though i feel like hate
this this causes me to hesitate
it is a thing that i want to do without
yet its something i cant live without.
quick someone throw me out!
so i can wriggle, giggle, scream and shout.
i admit.
im falling in love with sylvia plath.
=)
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