Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
hold on...before its too late...
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Nephrite at 2:06:00 PM
this one's gonna be a really long entry.
so read it and weep.
haha.
ok.
i think i've got more things to worry abt now.
so maybe, just maybe i can forget abt my own....temporarily.
argh.
banana keeps calling me a charity case and right now i am really starting to feel like one.
its kinda inevitable that i'm close to some of my clanmates so they know my situation but the problem is that now that they are trying to 'help' me in the ways i dont really like.
weel, u noe what i mean..
like, i dun like feeling indebted to people and i rather be supported morally.
and guys usually find the solutions via materialistic ways.
i have to admit its sweet and thoughtful but i really dunno if its the right way to go abt things.
brian, aka my 'buttie', just sent over a 'get well' package tt day.
haha. it had 2 bottles of brand's essence, some tea bags, milo and fisherman's friend.
lol.
he must have put in the milo to suan me cux he noes i can drink that right now.
dnd is over.
i miss the late night practices
but i dont miss the fatigue.
the queen and king of hall 8 this yr are hwei fung from khydra and kennard from azriel.
and yea.
they totally deserve it.
i didnt expect to get anything out of this pageant other than meeting new people and getting the fun out of it so there's really no regret.
other than losing face at having to saunter down the stage in a bikini with the whole hall watching.
for the record.
i don't like popularity.
i don't like being well known till everyone has certain expectations of me.
till people give me painted smiles and beguiling wiles when they dont mean it.
i've already been there and done that.
all popularity causes is hardship, lost friendship and pain.
maybe people just love being loved in that sense but what happens when u are no longer popular or glamourous?
will they still love u then?
right now im back to being the quiet loner i was in lower secondary before my council life started.
rmb kat? if u r reading this.. its a trip down memory lane
haha.
this was why i was like that.
hmm..there were only 3 chinese girls in my class and that included me.
but i dun speak much chinese if u realise.
so mostly durd recess time i'd jus sit on a bench, read my storybook and eat at the same time.
i did this for the whole of sec 1 .
then jill came in sec two and she was the one who widened my social circle abit.
but she sure as hell gave me all the prodding i needed.
aft that i started to get to know so many people i counldnt keep track of them.
anws.
the point is.
its diff in uni then in sec sch.
everyone is more or less settled.
they arent interested in making a whole bunch of new friends, like my roomie.
she's having some problems adjusting as well.
except she doesnt even wanna try making new friends.
which will probably make campus life miserable.
but i suppose if no one wants to make the first move.....sighs.
im definitely closer to all my hallmates than the ppl in ELH.
even if there are innovians around, we arent close at all.
and the innovians here are so sparse u can prob count with both hands.
but i am so glad ally's just next door.
and she's my clanmates' class mate to boot.
like yay.
and chinghong's in the same class as another clanmate,
anyways.
is anyone interested in coming for my hall bash at zouk?
we're fundraising for nxt yr's orientation and each tix costs 18 bucks.
not to mention we have to do canvasing as well.
meaning, contribute money.
but its all part and parcel of bonding i guess.
like jillbean says... uni life jus reiterates to u who ur real friends are.
who u can really count on.
the problem though, will always be meeting up.
sheesh.
not to mention.
im still sick.
i sound like a drag queen and i can smell anything i eat.
how pathetic is that?
esp when one of my past times is eating.
plahs!!!
and and
whenever u sign up for a cca in this sch they ALWAYS ask u to write a personal info para.
its like argh.
why do i have to promote myself?>
one thing i guess i can say im happy abt when it comes to my personality is...
that im a natural ice breaker.
and that my emergenetics pie chart is almost equal, meaning that i have the potential to get along with almost everybody.
so far, it hink its true.
but of course this is assuming that the other party isnt completely introverted.
argh,
im digressing again.
watashiwa shitsumon dewa arimasen!!!!!!!!
ya, i hate questions.
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