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Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.

ways of killing myself slowly

Monday, July 02, 2007

Nephrite at 6:29:00 PM

i swear some people are just out to get me.
sorry la!
i am not the subtle sneaky snakey kind of person that needs to go in one big FUCKING (yes, i am FINALLY using this word) circle just to get to the FUCKING POINT.
i am sorry i don't whine or sweet talk or be sticky sweet jus to butter u up or to get what i want.
note.
i am not pissed at anyone in particular but to this someone.
you dont have to sweet talk me ok.
or patronise me.
don't talk to me like i'm a customer.
especially when i tell you str8 to the point.
i dont like repeating the reasons over and over and im sure u dont like patronising me over and over either.
haha.
cuz i ain't.
think abt it.
i put down mornings ALL the time.
if i can't handle it i wont put it.
and if i put SO MANY morning shifts down i dont understand how it is i cant get even ONE slot.
am i that invisible?
or am i just invisible when my help isnt needed or when u dont need sth from me?
where is the 'ren qing'?
when people need my help i help.
and when i do help, i dont do a fucking HALF ASSED job either.
when i said don't kill me u give me one of the most taxing jobs.
are u trying to test my SANITY or did u just want me to quit or sth.
i am SO ANNOYED.
sometimes i fucking CURSE MY OWN ETHICS.
i keep my personal life out of work.
and when i help, its help all the way or dont help at all.
and unlike SOME unreasonable people i DO think of the consequences OTHER people have to bear if i dont help.
i sure as in ten hells know how it feels like when i feel like my fate has been sealed when its overcrowded and understaffed.
some people cant stay but those who can and just blantantly REFUSE to completely pisses the hell outta me.
i mean u noe how bad it gets and there u are making others succumb to that horrible fate.
we all know that when it gets busy, efficiency increases but what the FUCK do u think will fucking happen if theres just a huge MOS queue waiting to drown the rest?
DUH!
ppl are ALL human. we WILL make mistakes that we usually dont make.
its one thing if its sth we really dont know, but its PLAIN DUMB if we get so busy we make stupid mistakes like leaving the order chit in our pocket cux 3 other customers call at once.
and su is totally right.
some people are just, total statues.

WHERE IS YOUR CONSCIENCE?
WHERE IS YOUR SENSE OF GUILT?
WHERE IS YOUR UNDERSTANDING?

others, are like, job hoppers who end up doing everything else BUT their job.
so everyone ends up doing everyone else job and its also chaos.
but its totally understandable when it gets busy and there is no choice.
having initiative is so much better than having a lack thereof.
esp in this line.
but the former is totally worse than the latter.
its like. ya. u can say you're tired blah blah blah.

NEWSFLASH----who ISN'T tired? EVERYONE runs around.

anw.

at the end of it all.
all i CAN do is rant.
ok.
i have covered ALL the topics that piss me off.
anyways.
sue, i noe u're probably gonna read this so just let what i've said stay here.
its what a blog is for anyways.
ohoh. haha. and the person im talkin abt aint u. so chill.

and one more thing to grumble abt.
SARA LIM WHY U START SCH SO FAST U IDIOT!!!