Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
a no, taihen dane!!! mo-! anatawa!
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Nephrite at 2:01:00 AM
hello nesh!
i noe u are probably reading this now.
might as well be open abt it.
well, well, well.
we all know who can keep things to themselves and who cant, now, don't we.
-smirks-
some of us are probably thinking it was only a matter of time while the idealistic ones probably wanted to trust.
oh well.
its now down to who can and cannot separate personal life from work life.
honestly.
people who read this blog probably noe i hide most of my frustration pretty well.
there may be alot of things i do not like abt myself, but i think controlling my emotions is sth i can usually manage.
and, might i add, it is sometimes better than that of adults.
altho technically im alr a young adult myself.
we shall see whether or not all this online ranting and musings will be used as a weapon.
i'm an idealist, yea, but im not stupid.
think im loud at work?
think of it this way.
i prefer to use it in a way where it prevents unnecessary unhappiness.
letting other ppl noe abt a person's working habits actually helps ppl work around it.
prevents all unnecessary tears, cursing, ranting blah blah the whole enchilada.
think its funny to spread fake stuff and cause unnecessay worry?
or be unethical when it comes to consumption safety?
i will NEVER betray anyone i work with even if i feel like condemning that person to hell and back.
so please, don't ask me awkward questions unless u want awkward answers.
im not being sarcastic at this point though since this IS MY BLOG i can basically be as sarcastic as i want.
but honesty is the best policy isnt it?
u'll just have to find someway to deal with my bluntness.
any form of diplomacy is completely useless when the problem is the lack of reason.
some things are in shades of grey. but for those that are black and white.
black is black and white is white.
u will NEVER be able to use one to conceal the other forever.
but then all of this annoying stuff im spewing out right now is always taken the wrong way so.
i wont spew anything to you.
i shall learn to be selfish.
i shall start to lack initiative.
i wont share my opinion or point out any more mistakes.
i'll risk my neck for some but the rest who are the REAL loudmouths can just rot for all i care.
its really not my fault if they have bad taste or sense.
the funny thing is i actually learnt all of this in literature and gp lessons.
i dont understand why it took me so long to link the two.
when the ppl who are supposedly more expendable show the potential to be sth better the authority almost always falters.
why is it so?
shouldnt efficiency, like, increase?
its more like, things slow down instead.
so weird huh?
anyways, unless u are my friend, have the decency to keep any feelings u harbour abt this here.
that is, if u are even capable of doing that (i'm assuming u are).
school is starting soon.
im taking most of the next week off to unwind my twisted body clock *thanks to all the late nights* and to take care of the rest of the admin stuff.
its not as fun anymore anyways, after my best buddies get thrown into the kits while im left outside.
but whatever.
im still tt annoying person who adapts will everybody.
banish me if u want, i'll still get along.
ah, the quirks of being ethical.
treating other ppl the way u want to be treated is basic.
karma is everywhere.
live it, breathe it.
like confucious said, when u enjoy ur work u wont feel like its work at all.
i suppose if life at work gets miserable for everyone, the ones in the biggest trouble will be well, not us.
haha.
hmmm.
work.
having new blood is a good thing.
but the turnover is getting way too high.
its lowering efficiency and getting on nerves.
not mine yet, but its taking a toll.
and the newbies are somehow.... not the same as the old batches.
as in the ones tt came after me were all pretty good.
but some of them now.
are just....
well.
i think if they all were to work together on one waitside there would be chaos.
i think i noe what they lack.
speed.
somewhat.
cant pin point it.
oh well.
so long they dont screw me up its not my probelm since i didnt train them anyway.
haha.
had a chat with a NFF in the transport home today. i think the NFF is rite. that IDIOT should just go F-off, or sth.
ps.this
ENTIRE entry was randomised.
what do i mean?
i practically mixed my other stuff with work today in every other line, or sth liddat anyway..
haha!
good luck figuring what is what.
its my prerogative.
=)
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