right now i'm annoyed at alot of people.
even the people that i dont get annoyed at.
im not pmsing so i guess this is the result of supression.
still.
argh!
some of my frens are just so unreasonable, inconsiderate and just....
not THERE!!!!!!
i'm not mentioning any names.
if you're sensitive enough and think long enough hopefully you'll realise it.
though im boiling now.
i shall control somemore.
argh.
still.

another thing.
my life is totally steeped in shades of grey now.
i ABHOR it!
i'll separate everything back into black and white.
i'll stick it up to the man.
whoever the man is at the moment.
quote ' dont let the bastards grind you down.

i'm feeling quite afraid now.
i dont know where all this unbridled feelings are coming from.
anger, resentment, sorrow, despair.
why cant i be collected and 'cool' like before.
i need to get my act together, and soon.
i dont want to fall to pieces and be vulnerable for the world to see.
i'm surrounded by many people but at the same time, surrounded by none.

'neath the surface, my heart and soul screams bloody murder.
i'm lost in my own masquerade.



question: what do i do abt it? what AM i SUPPOSED to do?