Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
a song to the sun
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Nephrite at 11:46:00 PM
in these last few days....
i've learnt alot more than i have about ppl this whole year i suppose...
shocking?
maybe its the stress that's gotten to our heads and turn us into complete mush that we dunno what we're doing.
some things that i noe now i wish i did not know..
yet now that i noe wad i do noe, im also kinda glad.
how ignorant i would've been w/o what i noe now...
i tot i'd be leaving innova with half baked friendships but now i feel assured that even in two short years, the ppl u meet everyday, interact with and all seem to count more than some of those i spent four years with in secondary school?
is this the transition to true maturity?
that we all become attached and grounded?
i can't say all those i regard as frens feel the same abt me tho i hope they will.
BUT.
what i do noe is that all of them've left imprints of themselves with me.
and this, i gladly say, i will keep with me for as long as i can.
the good, the bad, the funny, the not so funny, the gossip.
i have to say that the jc experience probably 'enmeshes' us all.
studying got to me today...
hello, who turns the 'aral sea' into 'anal sea'?
like, geez.
oh and. VERENA.
u have totally ruined my IMAGE.
omg...
the xiaodidi must think we're a bunch of pedophiles!!
u have pedophilic tendencies woman!!
haha.
i felt cheated at today's so called 'gp wrap up'.
-_-
the poetic life of a doll?
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Nephrite at 8:18:00 PM
ok. this whole poem may come off as bimbotic, but.
i think it isnt tt bad...hmmmmthe life of a doll
the painted face and bright blue eyes
the rose-red cheeks and smiling lips
it all remains clear on a cloudy day
she stares back
from her cardboard box,
her place is to be seen, yet never heard
her sadness, her woes,
they never show
she silently fears
but no one hears
when one looks at she all one sees
are the porcelain pieces and priceless features.
so now you know the life of a doll that smiles and suffers in silence.
PS.... PPL WATCHING DEATH NOTE WAIT TILL THE CREDITS ARE OVER! THERE"S STUFF @ THE END yea?
So Long, Farewell, Adieu, Goodbye, Sayonara. Anyeong
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Nephrite at 1:34:00 AM
2 years have gone by.
i am 2 years older.
2 years closer to joining society.
jeez, i feel freakin old.
A's are nearing.
hmm.
after the uni talks tt day im kinda baffled as to what i really wanna take in the U.
then again. IF i get in.
hopefully, i will.
haiz.
we had grad ceremony ytd.
weel was ill tho.
poor thing.
see la, who ask u to stay up to do those things? hmm?
but the effort n the product are thoroughly appreciated tho.
haha.
the librarian Rani is niceeee.
the video montage was biased.
but i totally loved the kaeleidoscopes we got frm ms baey.
totally her style, its like, symbolic of frost.
the star splitter.
i got a pres from val, peiyin n joanne.
thanks girls, i o u one.
haha.
tho the 3 of u shared one for me.
HAPPY BDAY JEREMY.
fri the 13th, we had another class gathering.
tho just 11 turned up, it was more than the other times.
and it was relatively funner.
shena n eileen finally came!!!
if you're reading this, I M GLAD that the two of u came.
really.
and we got to noe the wild side of ms baey.
-cocks an eyebrow-
she is SO nOT a prude.
haha.
we had stingray, oyster omelette, noodles, chicken wings, carrot cake, and veggie for dinner.
and lotsa sugarcane.
all at newton circus.
after tt was supposed to be pubbing but we ended up getting drinks from seven eleven n went to the esplanade's roof to goof arnd.
i got high on a choc drink. n had a few sips of the others' alcohol.
i was HAPPY.
haha.
to let go of all my worries, even for just those few minutes, felt really good.
if only i could do tt on normal days.
if only.
u should've been there weel. u would've laughed at me. or with me.
and u wouldn't have believed tt it was me a week ago in that toilet cubicle on that thurs morn.
there'll be other chances i guess.
louise is leaving today.
all the best babe. don't forget us yea?
hurhurhur
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Nephrite at 7:01:00 PM
" Of your friends, say good things. Of your enemies, say nothing."yea, rite.gimme a break.
fate
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Nephrite at 11:25:00 PM
"O", the modern version of Shakespeare's Othello was broadcasted on tv today!
yay, but boo too.
i mean yes, i finally got to watch it but boo cux its a tragedy.
of course, any deviation from the play would've meant it wasn't true but still.
haiz.
i LOVE Julia Stiles!!
this is her 2nd Shakespeare-based film.
the other one was "10 things i hate abt u", extracted from "Taming of the Shrew".
oh well. as shakespeare put it, "Some rise by sin, and some by virtue fall"
hmm.
i kinda have lots to say.
but i dun quite know how to put it.
-thinks. thinks. and thinks somemore.-
what is the point of one's existence in this world exactly?
to comfort others? to bring joy?
i think that's a question that will leave me stumped for quite sometime.
p.s.
spent moonday this year at chinese garden,which was a letdown and at rap's.
we tried to 'cai mi yu' n buy candles in vain.
so me, jas n weel played RISK till 4.30am.
without realising it.
zai bo?
lol.
the haze sucks.
its a total party pooper.
ME. me. Me. mE.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Nephrite at 12:07:00 AM
i decided to post somemore.
heh.
ummm.
so i'm sensitive yet distant, cold or shove-love-down-your-throat, dreamy or overpractical.
shite.
wad if its just my luck to be born contradictory?
does this mean i'll be doomed in every relation i have in life?
wth?
this sucks.
being pisces-aquarian sucks.
i'm a hopeless case.
for all that my palm says i have control over my life...
well. i AM trying to control it.
probably explains my exhaustion.
hey!
does this mean i have to fight un myung, fate, for the rest of my life?
like, SHIT.
whats with that?
now here's another reason to regret coming into this world.
not to mention there are six other look alike me's that i've yet to meet.
thats another freaky thing.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Nephrite at 4:25:00 PM
hmmm...i've realised.i used to totally destress by reading tons and tons of storybooks. but now that all my subjects require READING alot, reading somemorewould jus make matters worse.so, i've found a new way to destress.watching.movies, people, dramas, taking more notices of everyday stuff.walking along the road and looking at the cars that pass by, the way other people walk, the way the leaves on trees look, the tiny differences have suddenly become more apparent.i guess robert frost is kicking in. i'm glad there's an improvement in my results this time round..but the progress i'm making isn't quite fast or good enough.econs econs. what am i to do with you?you have one heck of a way of making things complicated, do u noe?sheesh.pain in the ass.
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