the last teacher's day in uniform
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Nephrite at 11:48:00 PM
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EILEEN CHEW AND RIKKA !!
haha...
i baked brownies for teacher's day again.....
but...
this time the brownies didn't turn out as nice i think.
haiz.
but it was not bad considering the circumstances.
wednesday....
sat for GP prelims in the morning...gruelling paper ok...mrs naidu bluffed us. =(
went to the woodlands lib where weel n i rotted for 3 hours plus plus...
rushed to get chews piece of cake....
waited in excitement for the 'blind' girl.
come up with ways to distract her.
the mcfun cum mcporn party.
rush to serangoon to get my lenses.
rushed home.....reached arnd 9
got the brownies in the oven by 10.10 while helping jo a bit at the same time and cleaning up the mess....but the consistency of the brownie mix doesnt seem rite...
1030 the brownies were out.....
1230....most of the wrapping was done..
130am....finished ms baeys card n climbed into bed....FINALLY
now...
im dead tired.....
the performances today were really nice....esp the modern dance n the skit by the teachers...
the aces day workout was unique....battle of the houses.
was disappointed when we went back to nss...
the school was almost empty....
hardly any teachers were there and we didnt get to see our yearmates...
haiz...
take my pain away
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Nephrite at 11:43:00 AM
I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.i hate school i hate school i hate school.
try that for hypnopaedic conditioning!
ugh.
why are we reading about dystopian utopias for again?
why do we need to think about walking wombs and malthusian drills?
hello! we cant even get out of the studying system!
gosh.
as if that wasnt enough, we have to learn about money supply.
and pro natal policies.
and think about war and morality.
why cant we all just learn 'stone and drool'?
that sounds like so much MORE fun.
cux honestly, im tired of THINKING.
though i suppose if i didnt think at all i'd become terribly bored and start thinking about things that i dont need to think about but that's a different story, isnt it?
jeez. sometimes. i really feel STUPID.
here's to so called humanity and wad it does to make u humane.
Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all
Monday, August 21, 2006
Nephrite at 10:59:00 PM
im tired.
im aching from sleeping in the wrong position n falling down in school.
great.
more blue blacks when im still recovering from other blue blacks.
my pinky hurts!!! it got bruised...and it was just healing from a bad paper cut.
now i sound whiny.
im so exasperated.
tired
Friday, August 18, 2006
Nephrite at 9:42:00 PM
there's one thing on my mind all the time and its driving me crazy
i think im goin' crazt, and i don't noe wad i'm doin'
there's one thing on my mind all the time and its driving me crazy.
if its one thing and it drives u crazy....
wad if u have 2 or 3?
SLEEP
STUDY
FAMILY
wanna commit total murder suicide?
try tt combi.
history is best left tt way
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Nephrite at 8:49:00 PM
if u've been burnt once,
don't let urself get burnt again.
extremity is not wad others do unto u
but wad u allow them to force on you.
so don't.
don't even consider going there.
please please please think about it.
how much do u cherish your happiness?
gauge it.
do you noe wad true friendship is?
think about it.
analyze.
conclude.
you'd be amazed at the results.
after my shock came panic then a blardy sense of helplessness.
the feeling i resent most.
helplessness.
when u cant do a thing.
the second worst feeling.
waiting.
waiting..
waiting...
my mona lisa smile will be back..
st some point.
`
Cause baby everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart?
wadever urself, bitch.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Nephrite at 11:35:00 PM
yo.
who do u think u friggin are mate?
CRY over YOU?
hello.
wake uP and smell LIFE.
im not wasting my tears over u.
all u deserve from ME is SNEERING.
and that's wad im gonna friggin do, SNEER at u.
even if it is uncharacteristic of me.
why?
because.
i am TIRED of u having double standards, being cold, selfish and tyrannical.
well i hope u seriously get taught a lesson at some point of ur puny life.
just cause u have control, or wad u PERCEIVE as control of WAD U call UR Life,
it does NOT meanu can shame the family OR mess up OTHER peoples lives u self centred BRAT.
SCREW YOU.
i hope to my grave u rot in hell.
i have never met such a aggravating person.
i have NO IDEA how i've managed to PUT UP with ur SHIT for the past friggin DECADE.
omg, my tolerance must've been elastic.
BUT rite now is very fragile.
so goodbye im no longer mr NICE GUY.
note the colour. its supposed to be sweetness belying my obviously venomous words.
literature is getting at me,
fireworks
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Nephrite at 12:54:00 PM
okok.
haha.
major gossip fest with lou.
weijye was like, there but not there.
haha.
the fireworks ytd was alot nicer than the one the other day!
the musical accompaniment was a nice touch.
and the fireworks seemed more in sync.
nice nice!
haha.
and it wasnt tt crowded from where i was standing but there still were ppl that were oohing n aahhing like idiots.
so.....dottish.
haha.
anw.
human geog, as always, is a killer.
plah!
the outrage
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Nephrite at 8:40:00 PM
im outraged rite now.omg..the audacity of some ppl.freaks!thats wat u are.self-centred and inconsiderate is another.its totally off-point like hell-o.somehow the focus totally shifted!like....arggh.andand.u REALLY need to wake up and smell the freakin' roses man.nuff said.the bbq at aaron's was quite funn!!loved the ben n jerry's cookie sandwich thing!haha.i had two n i can totally feel the guilt.haha.and as jane said, the bbq-d food was done to perfection.nth was burnt or undercooked.unlike our disastrous class bbq.lolmanaged to clock in some studying b4 the bbq so i dun feel too guilty.heh.today.lake house with lyd..the movie was NICE.but total opposite of SPEED, the last show sandra bullock n keanu reeves acted in.still.they're totally good together.the story plot is so full of ups n downs.sighs.no such things in reality.back to sch tmr.nt to mention mock exam..tata.
drama
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Nephrite at 2:27:00 AM
omg.
life, people in it all surprises me.
what i thot wasnt wad i thot.
sometimes.
i really wonder.
who CAN you trust?
can one even trust one-self?
the past two days has been dramatic.
even for a lit student to experience such things in life...
i half expect a camera man to pop out and say, "smile, you're on canded camera"
but thats just naivete speaking.
i'm sorry. as in i feel sorry for her.
actually, i feel sorry n teary for all those who have the horrid luck to encounter this kind of shite when so much trust was at stake.
----on another's sorrow . Songs of Innocence comes to mind.
NO ONE should have to go thru this.at this point in life,
pivotal changes await.
what we think may not be
yet wad we dimiss may be significant.
but to watch life as one watches the clouds
would just be us passing it by.
but watching clouds are one of the best things to do.
yet we sacrifice.
ugh.
we are born to die yet we are contrained by society and cant live it the way we want.
wad is worse?
to be born or to be trapped?8/9:The day was destroyed.
don't get me wrong... the first half of the day was funfunfun.
haha.
went to sch with lyd (who was supposed to wear a red shirt with me but didnt) ..
she was telling me all abt abercrombie n fitch n the flea markets..haha.
when we reached sch, i was ordered to show her who was who but she didnt get a clear view.
(dun worry dear, u'll get ur chance) . actually, she got it later tt day but dunno whether she saw the correct one anot.
haha.
the performance was not bad.
i liked the second chinese song!!
(performed it at the SYF opening ceremony when i was in sec 2 with hundreds of other kids.
lol. they even had dance steps which seem so cheesy now but back then i was grateful for SOME kind of moves to be incorporated into the singing.
gosh, baby, i can only take that much.
i wasnt born a singer.
and plus, my voice changed, as if i wasnt a freak enough then.)
anw. modern dance was.....unique?
i dun like shining's choreography....its sth not everyone likes and plus, too much repetition n obvious use of certain aspects like cannon.
haiz. meiyan, jeff, jud n i will probably NEVER get to perform our final piece that we worked so hard on n choreographed ourselves... shall ask ms baey abt it...
afterall it'll look gd on our HRC. since i've got no syf.
HUI XIAN is HOTHOTHOT!!
haha.
the current tallest girl in dance!!
and she wore the colour i really like!!
bLack is THE colour.
yea baby, u totally rock!!
haha. but mux always rmb.....RELAX!!
1ST spoiler? ECONS.
2nd SPOILER?
haiz. i really wanted to wilt up n die on that spot.
its as tho two years nv existed.
today....today two years ago we brought 'em to watch the fireworks...
today....today two years ago u and i were best frens, or, at least i thot u were.
two years ago u regarded me as sth more than wad i ignorantly thot it was and i trusted, for the first time i really really really really trusted.
i trusted u. do u have ANY idea how hard that was?
but i did.
and half a yr later after today two years ago....
u tore me apart.
and today.....today i saw u yet again with someone new.
with different style n manner, a different 'tude.
what ARE u?
and ALL i did, despite was i felt, was smile n give a wave.
why? up to today, even i noe not.
and i still dunno the reason. i still feel lost. uncertain. the ends are still loose.
one day i want to have enough courage to ask why.
and u WILL give me the reason.
the Fireworks was nice...but tinged with memories for me.
i hope, and still i hope.
to understand why.
y is it u can make me feel so.......used? incompetent? utterly disgusted with myself?
y is it after ALL this time u still have the power to make me tear at the mere sight?
wad is it about u?
im no longer angry.
just so very, very confused.
wad the hell is going on?
ashworth's fading
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Nephrite at 5:20:00 PM
omg.
even after reading sth thats staring u in the face u STILL dun geddit?
u seriously need to re-evaluate ur brain.
who thick can someone possibly get?
sheesh.
my baby ashworth is sick.
now im regretting not playing with her more.
haiz.
why her.
she's still young..even in hamster years.
oh man.
she's fading away.
i cant wait till the A's are over so i can get my hands on a storybook!
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Nephrite at 7:36:00 PM
hmmm...
its just another saturday afternoon...
ytd was a rush-day.
rush here rush there do this n do that..
all from the moment i woke.
7.15 am.....see ms lim
7.50am......rush for flag raising
8.10 am....rush to lt5 for econs
12.40pm...rush home to bathe n get clothes then rush back for STAR n on the way back got disgusted/embarrassed at the sight of....yuck, nvm)
6.30pm.....rushed to TAO for MY's bday celebration in advance with NIGIME.
(7 dish meals r killers!! huai san's unique, loved the lavender tea. rose apple smells like beer. creme brulee is yumyumyummy. lamb n pork ribs r fatfatfatty. cod too. ohhh.) _p.s_juju hokkaido nxt time!!_
10pm....headed to the airport to study with Lat, eileen n weel.
1am.....went doem to the cafe with weel, got a espresso mocha to wake us up, hogged the comp for over an hour.....looking at blogs....i wanted to blog but didn't.....ended up chatting with lou..haha.
2 plus am.....went back to studying
5am......died....
6.30 am....caught the bus back home with eileen n nearly fell off my seat numerous times cux i dozed off n heard an unruly grp of mats guffawing.
what a way to live eh?
wake up n smell the flowers my frens!
this is the life of a student.
now i sound corny.
sth struck me today. . .
why was i so unbelievably hung up when i had so many better ones?
how did i let myself get so cynical?
but do i not want to be cynical? ok, tts another issue.
but wad is the next step now?
to hold on or to let go n risk everything i've built....again?
will i be able to handle it all over again?
will i make the right choice?
should i think more or not think and risk insensitivity?
the main point: what exactly do i want?
my state: i dunno.
sheesh.
(weel, i will NEVER understand them, so really, im in the same boat as u, despite what u call 'experience'...i dun think they were much help)
-hahahahaha-
-_-
pluthers.
the questions, or question, remains a mystery.
NOTE: RAPHAEL CHEN :
im not tt pissed anymore. . just miffed. .annoyed. .in need of a punching bag....(kidding!)
i jus needed to get over the initial shock.
but for goodness sake, jus cux i accept the apology does not mean u can continue circulating the photos!
national day is near....
yay?
dunno.
blogg ripper male sucker.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Nephrite at 8:16:00 PM
hey ya bloggers out there!!!
don't u jus hate ppl ripping yer stuff?
i sure as hell do.
gosh.
haha.
hey kim!
forget it.
i think some just won't geddit.
so long as u noe, i noe n ur frens noe, its enuf.
the rest can probably guess if they dun alr noe i suppose.
wahaha.
mayb ppl who get ripped shud take it as a compliment instead.
had a nice 'little' but loud n guffawing (actually i was the one doing guffawing) chat with louie today. which reminds me... RAPHAEL CHEN HOW CUD U SELL ME OUT?!!! (metaphorically speaking o'course). HOW COULD U?! nvm. i shall tell on u....
anyways, lou, i got ALOT to say abt Mr Chen so remind meeeee...muahahaha.
revenge will be sweet.
anyways. that tiny chat reminded me what got me so pissed but ohhh i noe it really isnt worth getting my pants in a twist over.
but but but. i'm human. and i don't follow 'THE DIVINE IMAGE'
all i can do is strive.
speaking of which. to ALL GIRLS who have been mistreated by the opp sex....
SOME men, guys, boys ARE complete perambulating nitwits who only want to satisfy their needs of pride n lust n whatever it is guys think abt. ughh.
we'll get our revenge someday...
meanwhile.
i think we shud try to get better reflexes to knock 'em down rite there n then.
to the horrid guys out there....
shit u, u pathetic bastards.
get a friggin' life.
if not, don't live. u're just being a TORT.
and if u dun get what tt means, dun read.
you're jus wasting ur time.
ok. i feel better now.
ohohoh.
i m completely jealous of all those who managed to donoate blood.
ugh. no fairrrr.
i wandered around a malcontent today.
weel too. no fairrrr.
hmphh.
`And his dark secret love
Does thy life destroy.
`Will we lose it someday?I wanna protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the winds of time
I will find you
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Nephrite at 3:09:00 PM
PTM.
ugh.
ms baey tried to save me but mum just HAD to embarrass me.
why cant my family be NORMAL or CONVENTIONAL for once?
sheesh.
next.
some ppl are sO rude, like, they eavesdrop is one thing.
still have the nerve to try and look back.
god. at tt moment i wished i was cyclops.
quoting mdm mas: " has your parents nv taught u manners?"
then again. it could be that u're just too stubborn.
oh we-ll.
nth can be done if u are.
isn't that just tragic?
okok. im being sarcastic.
but it feels good every once in a while tho some ppl find it bitchy.
bitch.
i sO hate that word.
its totally degrading both on the user n on the one its being used.
can u guys find a term that shows off ur vocab rather than use this?
just wad exactly is 'bitchy' attitude anw?
define it. i think u'll realise u cant.
like, faggot is used on gays but in the dictionary it means a useless piece of wood.
hey?! where's the link?
fuck means having sex. its just a crude term. but when ppl say 'fucking', does that mean sexing? what the hell?
okok.
im digressing.
the mock paper was a killer.
it killed our brains, fingers, necks n legs.
n subsequently, weel n i killed our shins after tt 3 hours of freezing n rot.
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