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Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.

dropout?

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Nephrite at 3:18:00 PM

is it just me or is it becoming a habit.
me = dropout?
again.
sheesh.

somehow its all coming back.
oh well.
i guess i can only blame myself.

ok, fellow j2s.
its all about us.
we do well, the school gets the credit
(whether they really helped us is another issue).
if we don't do well,
the credit all goes to us.
then again.
its not really "credit", is it?

ytd, fri, 14th july.
we ended sch at like, 1240 but hadta stayback till like 6plus to complete the whole stupid presentation thing.
fun? more like, NOT.
we didn't know crap.
and they want us to come back on our sch holiday to do a dry run.
faith in us? naught.
delegation was crap.
the ppl who knew wad to do for sth was overridden by someone who knew NOTHING and didn't do much of ANYTHING.
productivity? zilch.

i must admit i was pretty unproductive myself.
me, mark, haoren n serena were supposed to do the write-up on the river studies thing which eventually ended up being just me n mark.
wow.
bt we managed to complete it, after getting high and lame and i bet half of what i wrote was complete nonsense.
helping with the lifeskills section was much much more productive.
everyone contributed and we had fun recollecting some of the stuffs that happened there.
the remarks will be funny 4eva. i swear!
plus everyone agreed and cooperated on stuff.
isn't it ironic?
we were applying the life skills we were writing abt WHILE we were writing abt them.
haha.
-smirks-
we sO did it. hahaha.

tt is wad i have been doing a lot of lately.
inward smirking, scoffing, rebelling.
its not productive but it makes me feel better and allows be to smile n bear with shit thats happening.
i just realised its probably a good thing i can't be A psychologist because i cant even figure myself out.
i can totally imagine driving my patient crazy instead of making her sane.

ok. im talking abt the future.
which, at the moment, is pretty dim right abt now.
so. focus on the present?
im back to sighing in exasperation.
haizzzzzzz.