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Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.

when it does fall apart

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Nephrite at 8:08:00 PM

so.
what you've implied is that i'm just a zero. zilch. nada. nothing. nil. o.
that i'm like, irrelevant.

no, im not being dramatic.
you can be offhand and nonchalant to people whom you're not close to.
and so what they say dun hurt shit.
but its those that u regard as close that you've gotta be wary abt, ain't it?
the ones u trust are the ones u fear at the same time.
these are the ones that have the power to make a single indifferent comment feel like a thousand knives stabbing into u.
the ones where u feel safe around, where u dun have to keep ur guard up.
when u think u can say whatever u wanna around.
its when sorry seems to be the hardest and the worst word that crosses your lips.
when unshed tears collect at the thot you could've done something wrong.
when u feel ur heart literally ache.
when u feel like shit.

so go ahead rub it in then pretend everything's alright, right?
wrong.
its not okay.
its so NOT ok.
especially when u have ppl and i don't.
so don't remind me.
wait, u've always done that.
i'm pissed and sad and hurt.
d'ya noe u can be so cold sometimes you're worse than him.
but hey, since u drew the line all by yourself, i'll reward you.
and i hope u're happy with what u get.
im hating u right now.

wad i can say is, i'm glad u drew the freakin' line b4 i cared more.
but u chose a screwed up time to do it.