Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby.
Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning.
sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself,
I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets.
There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know.
And then you will see the world through my eyes.
empty.`
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Nephrite at 5:22:00 PM
hey.dad came today.he came to try to talk about the divorce.funny.i don't feel anything anymore.am i supposed to feel something?he apologized for failing as a dad.and all i thought to myself was.. u realise that only now??7 years have come and gone. im no longer the little girl whom u would scream at when i did not understand ur math concepts, the old algebra methods u tried to use and i just could not understand. i am no longer that girl who would sit on ur lap.u have made us all cynical. too cynical too young. do you have any idea how ancient i feel?or how sad i was when i saw joey torn?how do you think we feel?and somehow u always manage to bring the sad story back to yourself.i saw u today.u look older and more tired each time i see u.u're fading away, we all noe it.but theres a chasm of 7 yrs, and no one wants to talk about it. i noe i don't.u gave me some money.to make me feel better? or to make me feel worse?u may be a failure. but u succeeded in making me feel like one.do u noe ur daughters were all suicidal?do u noe one smokes and drinks and steals and the other cant have a proper convo with mum without screaming?do u noe how much mother suffers for us, for u? for what u did?do u?u dont.bcux if u did, u would've just let us be.and these, are the confessions of my broken heart.i guess my defense wasnt as good as i thot.so much for not caring.bull.so am i?am i supposed to feel?wad am i supposed to feel?i dont know.
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