Me? Nephrite. aka Jade. Stone, first and foremost. Being human comes later. Nah. I'm just kidding. Film fanatic. Lit Major. Loves books (DUH). Dragon baby. Don't watch much TV. I want to live like its the last moon rising and scream, just like no one's there. Here, I might lose all of my control. Don't blame me later if you don't wanna heed my warning. sometimes I say things that don't come out right but its all in the heat of the moment. It's not too late for you to turn back now. In these Invisible Cities I will build by myself, I hope you will enjoy yourself. The city will be made of green and black. There will be no bed of roses, but a crown of thorns. There will be wilted red roses and drooping stalks of violets. There will be rainbows, but with no pots of gold. There will be more rain than sun, more tears than smiles. What? Did you think this was some kind of fairytale? Baby, wake up and smell the flowers. There are none. Where did the flowers go? I don't know. And then you will see the world through my eyes.






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sick n tired
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Nephrite at 4:33:00 PM


Where do we go from here?
This isn't where we intended to be
We had it all, you believed in me
I believed in you
Certainties disappear
What do we do for our dream to survive?
How do we keep all our passions alive,
As we used to do?

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say
Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away
You must love me
You must love me

Why are you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I'll let you see how
Nothing has changed
You must love me
-evita

"...i'm sick, and i'm tired....i am sick and tired...." `quoting ruby frm "Monster-in-Law"

hahahahaha....
yes....
im tired n i'm falling sick....
its all me. n my fat mouth's fault. sheesh.
im feeling really stressed....
haiz...
summer tests r so near....
but im so far away.....
sheesh....
melancholic much?
golly....
haiz....
nth much else to say...
another time, another day.


so bored
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Nephrite at 5:13:00 PM


So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood
Dont' call me babyYou got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong to you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

we close our eyes
and the world has turned around again
we close our eyes and dream
another year has come and gone
we close our eyes and the world has turned around again
we close our eyes and dream

Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
These are the best days of our lives.
The only thing that mattersis just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.

`so bored....these are the choruses from 5 different songs tt i kinda like.....yea.....
only hope by mandy moore~
dont call me baby by madison ave~
angels and devils by dishwalla~
we close our eyes by allister~
in this diary by the ataris~

-JD


hey hey
Nephrite at 12:01:00 PM


i watched batmannnn....
hahahahah
i wanna watch charlie and the choc factory too!
got a hair cut....
ya....


Thursday, June 16, 2005
Nephrite at 3:04:00 PM


I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


moi
Nephrite at 2:50:00 PM


hey...
my life...
hasnt been as gr8 as i tot it wud be....
why...?
maybe i made the wrong choices and decisions....
i was prepared to bear the consequences but this, this is killing me bit by bit...
and i think im picking up all the wrong habits....
sheesh
habits i teach myself....
haiz....
this is life isn't it....
i find that i can learn the wrong things in a blink of my eye but take months to stop the habit....
haiz....
the endless cycle of helplessness is nothing new to me....
feel stupid and useless all the time now.....
sometimes i think of poly wistfully.....
like, wad if i had actually gone there?
but then i wud not have met the fantastic ppl that have made a deep impression in my mind in jc....
peeps like, weeling, jane, eileen chew, eileen lai, jas, haoren, ger, ian, tris, chris, ju, sharon, joash....and the list goes on n on.....
haiz...
what did i do wrong in my past life....


the HOLS??
Friday, June 10, 2005
Nephrite at 6:34:00 PM


hey
me again
repoting live from kinderland RTC
my current holiday job
occupation: temp admin
haha
im so gonna pay for this when the summer tests are over
cant seem to stop finding different ways to screw my life uppppp
yupppp
sheesh
look at me now
crappin on the job?
i so wanna larf but there's nth to larf abt.
i swear if one of u peeps gimme the slightest reason i'd burst into hysterical fits.
hahas
the only thing good abt this job at the moment is tt it look good on my future resume and gimme some extra cash tt i need for my hp bills...
yeah...
well...
till next time?
buaiz



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